I journal for a lot of different reasons…
To stay organized. A lot of what my journal consists of is lists; to-do lists for housework, to-do lists for Jackson, blog prompt lists, podcast idea lists. Making lists help me through our busy life. Having the ability to check things off gives me a feeling of completion so I can move forward. Having this visual helps a lot.
To make a quick entry of an idea, memory, moment in time, short little blurbs of things that pop into my rambling brain. I write down quotes, websites I need to check into, craft ideas, etc. I partake in journal prompt ideas to get my writing juices flowing. I journal to blog, like this piece you are reading now.
To release both the good and the bad that is taking place within my personal life and within the life of my family. I find it hard a lot of the times to express myself verbally and doing so in written form comes so much easier. It gives me time to think and reflect. I write a lot of entries, but many will never surface on this blog. I share what I think shows a rounded true picture of the event and/or emotions that are taking place.
To share, to show others what life as an autism parent is like. To let others parents going through this journey know they are not along with their feelings or experiences. I follow a few other bloggers and autism groups too. Having them helps provide support, ideas and resources against going through this alone.
I don’t journal and then blog for pity. Though most of my emotions may seem sad, frustrating or angry that is because I need to definitely release these at times. When things are going good I often forget to write those times down. I sometimes wonder if that is a product of the world we live in.
I write for understanding, acceptance and awareness of the child we have, the type of parents we are, and all those living with or affected by autism whether themselves or through a loved one. Hopefully through my writing, people are keeping an open mind about judging those they don’t understand. To not be so quick to judge those who are different and their caregivers.
I journal because I love writing, I blog to share a glimpse into our life.